Merry Xmas 2013!

TADA! My X'mas pressies for this year!

May everyone enjoy their Xmas celebration and look forward to the next year with positivity! ^^

Ending this post with a photo with my bff Ms. CUCUCHEN and the KOG clique! 

堆积着无形中的难过

今晚, 我的眼泪一直在眼里打转着。。。

心里一直传来阵阵的刺痛。。。

我到底做错了什么?

尽管我是多么希望找个人哭述。。。我还是忍住了。

父母问我到底是怎么回事了, 我答不出。

其实我很想抱着我的父母大哭一场但是我又担心他们会担心。

最终我只能独自回到房里默默的哭泣。。。

我很累, 我真的很累。。。

不管是心灵上还是躯体上, 我都已经见底了。也许是有联系的吧, 我的病况看了几次医生也没有好转。。。

当年曾经陪伴着我哭泣的人也已经不在了。。。

我用真心对待我身边的人难道是错的吗? 

无论我发问几次, 我还是结论。。。也也许是在逃避吧。

New hair cut yo!

New hair cut! Hahah still trying to adapt. Goodbye long hair...I really miss you~~~

Bored to the max

Hehehe...been neglecting my blog for a while... so I shall post a self taken photo: 

Family gathering can be so boring at times!

Bits and pieces of sound

Little bit of sound made at night can reminds me of Miu Miu... It feels as though she is still in her cage scratching and biting...

Hope you are doing fine in the separate world now. (: I'm still missing you.

Miu Miu。。。are you there? ):

Received a phone call from mum today in office... The very first thing she said was...I got a bad news to tell you... Little did I know that the bad news is...my Miu Miu have passed away. I didn't really know what to say... My heart is aching badly but I knew it's a relief for her...it will be a torture if she continues to live on... Came back just now and I went down with my mum to bury her body...pray hard that no cats will disturb Miu Miu...please...

She seems like she was just sleeping like normal...looking peaceful. Seems like she's never gone. Sayang her for the very last time before she's really gone.

Looking at her cages and items and especially the empty space where she used to occupy...really makes me realised that one of the family member is gone...

Been trying to hold it in...but it seems even more painful. .. I feel very guilty for not being a good owner... I really loves you Miu Miu... I really do.  I hope that you will move on to a better place with no more sufferings. I am already missing you...

Gonna miss u Tania ^^

Taken a pic with a gal whom my mum used to babysit and we sort of  witness her growing up process from a baby till now... she's gonna move to pasir ris starting from tml onwards...hope she and her little bro will rmb us. (:

Hahah its a pic taken without makeup and my color contact lens... feels kinda weird but hope it doesn't scares anyone :P 

Outing with parents

Brought my parents to Science Centre yesterday using my company's corporate pass (which means its free admission! ^^) Been busy with ot and going out with frens at times thus kind of neglected them ): Wanted to let them try out the earth quake stimulator but its spoilt ): Wanted to let them try out the typhoon stimulator but also spoilt... I wonder what's working exactly LOL

While going out with my dad, a good thing is...it prevented me from spending unnecessarily on bo liao thing I.e. spending coin on some machines in the science centre... Bad thing is...I can't fulfill my curiosity :P

Took a zi lian pic of myself in SC yesterday heheh ^^

Took a neo print photo with cucuchen lately and we realised that we are still in love with it! Hahah let us have flawless skin! Wohooo...

This is the one that cucuchen says that she likes most!^^

We agreed that we should take a neo print once in a while to document different phases (:

Years of friendship and still counting on......

Vicious cycle

You only need me there when you can't find someone else.
When I need you there, you are always there for someone else.

When my barriers are built up high and strong, you always try to break it down.
when it's all broken down, you just leave me with the coldness that I can't stand.

And the cycle goes on again.

How pathetic.

Head splitting...

My head has been very painful since afternoon and it's worsening now. I tried to endure without taking medicine as I am very afraid that I will over rely on medicine... been popping them whenever headache attacks me and my body is starting to get immuned to the medicinal effects. My head feels like it's cracking soon and I have no choice but to turn to medicine again. Just took two Anarex...hopefully it fulfils its task. Its freaking painful...thinking of certain thing is making it even more painful.

Sigh...why is my whole life plagued with headaches... ):

Lucky

Get to know this song yesterday and I went back to search for it. It's v nice, kinda meaningful and soothing too.

Do you hear me? I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a love like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love in every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

I'm seriously tired of acting like this... maybe its time to put an end to things. 

New experiment: Za

Bought a new make up product today from Za! Seen reviews that it helps with oily skin so I decides to give it a try. ^^

The price is less than a third of what I'm currently using so it will be a good buy if its good and doesn't create breakout. This casing is the 15th anniversary packaging and it looks pretty to me ^^ haven't really try the product...hope the color is suitable for me. ><

Since it's a two way foundation, I shall try not to put on my usual liquid foundation.  Shall just use this alone tml and see if its fine. (: I hate it when my face looks like a oil pan near the end of the day.  Or sometimes even before half of the day and my face is already super oily. == Really hope this will help me.

I hate to say this...but I miss.....

Bound by the life you left behind...

I am not the kind of who is expressive with my words but yet there are already thousand and one things running concurrently in my head. There is an old classic song which I like and part of the lyrics will kinda remind me of unhappy memories. 

My Immortals

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fearsAnd if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leave'Cause your presence still lingers hereAnd it won't leave me aloneThese wounds won't seem to healThis pain is just too realThere's just too much that time cannot eraseWhen you cried I'd wipe away all of your tearsWhen you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fearsAnd I held your hand through all of these yearsBut you still have all of meYou used to captivate meBy your resonating lightNow I'm bound by the life you left behindYour face it haunts my once pleasant dreamsYour voice it chased away all the sanity in meThese wounds won't seem to healThis pain is just too realThere's just too much that time cannot eraseWhen you cried I'd wipe away all of your tearsWhen you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fearsAnd I held your hand through all of these yearsBut you still have all of meI've tried so hard to tell myself that you're goneBut though you're still with meI've been alone all alongWhen you cried I'd wipe away all of your tearsWhen you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fearsAnd I held your hand through all of these yearsBut you still have all of me...All of me...All of me...All...

Bee doo Bee doo Bee doo Bee doo...

Belloooooooo!!!

Hahaha went to watch Despicable Me 2 today and it totally rocks! Super nice and the minions are super adorable!! They are so funny and cheerful and I have been laughing throughout the show. I want a minion as a fren!! Or a fren who is as vibrant as them ^^

I love you minions!!

Current thought: Me want banana (also know as I am hungry!! >.<)

I love you :'(

I am a bastard owner...

I didn't give my full attention to Miu Miu and now I even have phobia facing her. As her age is catching up on her...her body starts to fail her. As her owner, I should have taken good care of her especially during times like this but I really can't. Just now, I gather my courage to take a look at her and my heart was aching badly. One of the leg seems to be crippled, her eye developed infection and there were several bald portions on her body.  I hate to see her like this... I really hate to see her walking like this... When she fell, it seems so tedious for her to get back on her feet. Despite her one legged condition, she continues to perform dangerous stunts...I feel like scolding her but HELLO...would she even understand what I am saying? I carried it in my hand and I can feel that she is so thin now... Back then, she will attempt to bite...but...she seems to even loses her strength to bite any more. I am a freaking coward...I don't dare to face her current situation now...I refuse to own up to the fact that her days are nearing... I'm already used to having her at the part of our house and I'm already used to hearing all her biting and digging sound especially in the middle of the night... Most importantly...she is part of the family.

Ever since I bought her, my mum is the one who took care of her most. I was always home late and I failed as an owner and now I don't even have the courage to see her suffer like this everyday but I am very worried that one day I will have to hear from my mum or to discover by myself someday that she is "gone".

Forgive me Miu Miu... I am still praying that miracle will happen one day... 我希望你能康复。I love you. :'(

Supernatural power

I am the kind of person who will have millions of thoughts but always failed to express them out. I wished I had the mind reading power so that I can read people's mind. However, I'm also worried at the same time that I will get to know the hurtful truth. May I be bestowed with the power to just read the mind of selected few? (:

Post leave blues...

Been on leave since last wed and I can't believe that I have to go back to the office tomorrow already. It's like falling from heaven to hell. T.T

Actually, I have already started to work from home today.  Should have requested to telecommute today than to apply leave... Damn...I made the wrong move.

Have been staying up late for the past few nights and I just can't seem to get to sleep now and no more sleeping till late morning already...OMG! I want my sleep!!! I don't wanna squeeze in the train like a tuna. Aww...I hate the tedious journey to work ):

Child talk once in a while

Hahaha I hate to admit it but there will be moment like this  I need someone who really cares to be by my side to make me smile and dote on me like a child. In need of that someone now...are you there? Hahah (:

Care for a carousel ride?

Found this picture of a carousel online and I have decided to set it as my hp wallpaper. It is super pretty and it kind of reminds me of positive pointers like happiness, carefree and childhood innocence. I realised that it's been a long time since I have last taken a ride on a carousel too. I miss going to theme park. (:

Painful or useful?

Went for my facial today and as usual the extraction portion is freaking scary and painful. However, it wasn't as painful today and I thought that was a value-add. To my surprise, the extraction wasn't very thorough and I still have a few bumps left "unsettled". ): 

It wasn't my usual beautician who attended to me today as well as the previous time. Was informed that she was feeling unwell. I wonder what happened...

Ps. I need a miracle gel that will help to get rid of all the facial scars on my face!!! They are already starting to form a world map on my face *ahhhhhhhhh*

Felt like a singer yo...

Went out to meet Ms. Koh and Uncle Heng at the new shopping centre JEM. Never been there before but omg it's freaking big. Numerous shops over there but the scary thing was I got LOST. Received a call that uncle was unable to secure the parking lot in the vicinity so we proceeded to another location. Guess what? We actually headed down to CWP! Had our dinner and we made an impromptu trip down to marsiling cc ktv. It was funny to hear their presumptions of the ktv: " GOT AIRCON OR NOT? IS IT THE SLEAZY TYPE?" The karaoke session was fun but I seems to be the mic hogger since the other two doesn't really sing. 

Happy birthday Uncle Heng (:

Life can be as simple as ABC

Had my dinner with cucu chen and a super duper rich Regular tonight! Hahah although it was a short time together but we still managed to had a little bit of chit chat and a little bit of shopping. 

Enjoy simple moment like this with friends. Life is never meant to be complicated.

Ps.The wealthy Regular is the one who spent the most as usual :P

Bad sense of "direction"

Had a busy day today and I seemed like a work magnet attracting shitty stuff towards myself. Staring at the list of items that I need to complete...I'm freaking lost on which one to start first. Awww...I need a shed of light on the directions to take.

*Hehe maybe it's the haze's fault again :P*

Advanced birthday celebration (:

Had a super advanced 23rd birthday celebration with two of my ex colleagues: Jt and Lzj. Had an enjoyable dinner with them and I started to miss the times whereby they are still in office. If only time can be rewind (: